neon nail polish and crop tops, dark lipstick, a bottle of stolen malibu or vodka. rolled up school skirts, silver cigarette cases with barbie stickers, vogues or camel blues, tropical peach mints, calorie counting. fantasies of love, of anarchy, of mortality; ones that grew roots and ones that turned into lies. code words, platform heels, sunburns or faux fur, clear cherry joints. sleeves stuffed with scars, blood-soaked plasters and things that were not ours. secret tattoos, identical cackles. false hopes, sisterhood, metaphors. a will to die soon, a will to live first, to love fast, and other promises that couldn’t last.